In the wee hours do i sit since i cant sleep anyways. I got some cleaning done. But you are always on the back of my mind. The sadness overcomes me till the point of where I feel like I am chocking. The other day Noel and I went to your grave sight and as usual i am sad after but when i got into the car i could smell a man cologne that only lasted for a few moments and then it was gone. I like to think that it was  you saying hello. Noel is doing so well Dad. I know you were concerned about her not reading but now that she is on aderal she is able to focus and she is reading, i know you must be happy about that. She is a beautiful smart and caring child. A mother at church told the pastors wife said how nice Noel was to her disabled child. You know she is just soooo caring and loving that at time I am like how did I get so lucky. I just wanted to let you know the Matt is working so hard and taking very good care of us. I am all better from my mrsa scare. Your birthday is coming soon and I know it going to be hard.